Rename this blog? Not sure.

As much I would like to say my life is going great, there are times where it isn’t! Although I am taking the right path for me, it is hard. The toughness does bring character, and while I am working towards a new beginning of “I did it!”, in the time being I am facing severe anxiety and depression. It does not go away, I always hoped it went away but it never did! I have been living on my own since 18 years old, and I wish I could say if anything fails I will go back to my parents house! (If you don’t know yet my parents passed away when I was young). It would be easy to attend college early on with a stable environment but I didn’t have that option it was always been between almost becoming homeless or working to survive on my own.

I am doing it, and there is no room for failure or to stop. I cannot afford to.

With all this said again, I am going thru the ugly. With this in mind I try not to neglect and build new relationships with others. Also although I am pretty stressed with school I have been trying to get my everyday routine in settle place because of the severity of my well being, walking on eggshells setting a trigger.

What has helped me avoid trigger: Lessen the mess in home by whatever does not bring you happiness must go! Example: clothes in closet. Plan the day ahead or the overall month if possible. Breathe. Set healthy boundaries with others. Even though some has taken me a whole day for a simple task, it progress towards the bigger picture.

side notes:

Since I have come this far by working and going to school… All the CSU results have came out and I have accepted to go to Cal State Fullerton for Computer Science! This may be on the back burner just because UC results have not came out quite yet, having a first choice in mind for a UC! Either way I will be happy with CSUF for my higher ed! ๐Ÿ™‚

Odin and Holo says Hello! They have been the greatest support system, next to my partner. ๐Ÿ™‚ I want to give Odin a little photoshoot! I played around with Canon but decided to get a more serious camera so switched to Sony. I love it so far but again haven’t gotten around to play with it much. I would like to take him to a nice hike but being a Great Pyrenees its hard on him, would like to take him on a flat trail or maybe the beach. HAHA he gives the best hugs! Holo gives the best cuddles.

Hello There World,

It has been a while going, I decided to start my day and jump in my site(spontaneous, I know). I decided to take the day for myself, kind of.. Except I have paperwork to do and a project to work on. It is actually my last semester at PCC, I got my first acceptance for my transfer! Still waiting on other schools I applied for(my first pick). Just because I am transferring hard part is far from over, I am studying for engineering LOL. This is helping me in calculus because I actually do math like this in my mind, HAHAHAHAHA fucked I know!!! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X09oxyIeGuY&ab_channel=musicuploader1000

One thing that has been bugging the hell out of me is my CS class this semester, I am so stressed about it because I feel like I am SOO behind. I am literally drowning, & question does anyone in hell know what they are doing in the class HAHA. I am going to push through it, because this is what I want to do. Today I kind of taken a rest from it, although I still have to work on the project. ๐Ÿ˜›

I know it is silly but my goal this year is to wish everyone on my Facebook friend a Happy Birthday(even if its late), because who knows what part of life they may be in. Or who cares if I haven’t talked to them in years! It just a silly thing I think of ๐Ÿ˜› so far its going good!

These coming weeks I would like to focus on my physical health by taking more walks by myself & with my dog, work on yoga to stretch my body and lift weights since days are mainly spent on the computer. Maybe work on my blog more? Social accounts? Not sure!?

Well for now TTYL!